I promised I would introduce the absolute love of my life and here he is:
Don’t those big brown eyes just melt your heart? This is Roland Dean, born July 24, 2008. He is my pride and joy and the reason I am bound and determined to get better physically. I want to run and jump and play with him!
So he was a pretty cute baby too.
And you guys will probably be sick of hearing about him on this blog. On the eve of his first birthday I wrote a journal entry to him that sums up how I feel about my son. It is all still so true today so I want to share it here:
July 23, 2009
My Dear Sweet Roland,
You are sleeping right now and tomorrow when you wake up it will be your very first birthday. I am tearing up as I write this remembering all the moments that have made this past year the best of my life and knowing we will never have that time together again. None the less I am overjoyed at the same time. You are my own flesh. I see myself in your eyes, your nose, your already independent attitude. I cherish each day we spend together, each laugh we share, each kiss I place on your forehead. Life is so fulfilling with you in it. You are the reason I get out of bed, keep striving through illness and physical pain. You are the reason I never give up, I keep pressing on, I fight for a better tomorrow. Sweet Roland, you are every breathe I take, every smile I wear, every moment of joy in my heart. I love you, I love you, I love you. My precious child as you lie sleeping in your crib let your dreams be made of my everlasting, always protecting, unconditional love. Thank you for a year that was filled with joy, laughter, tears, growth…I never could have imagined I would learn so much from someone so small.
I love you Roland and I am so excited to share you with all my new friends!